Chapter 9
IX.
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IX.
Clifford and Phœbe
Truly was there something high, generous, and noble in the native
composition of our poor old Hepzibah! Or else,—and it was quite as
probably the case,—she had been enriched by poverty, developed by
sorrow, elevated by the strong and solitary affection of her life, and
thus endowed with heroism, which never could have characterized her in
what are called happier circumstances. Through dreary years Hepzibah
had looked forward—for the most part despairingly, never with any
confidence of hope, but always with the feeling that it was her
brightest possibility—to the very position in which she now found
herself. In her own behalf, she had asked nothing of Providence but the
opportunity of devoting herself to this brother, whom she had so
loved,—so admired for what he was, or might have been,—and to whom she
had kept her faith, alone of all the world, wholly, unfalteringly, at
every instant, and throughout life. And here, in his late decline, the
lost one had come back out of his long and strange misfortune, and was
thrown on her sympathy, as it seemed, not merely for the bread of his
physical existence, but for everything that should keep him morally
alive. She had responded to the call. She had come forward,—our poor,
gaunt Hepzibah, in her rusty silks, with her rigid joints, and the sad
perversity of her scowl,—ready to do her utmost; and with affection
enough, if that were all, to do a hundred times as much! There could be
few more tearful sights,—and Heaven forgive us if a smile insist on
mingling with our conception of it!—few sights with truer pathos in
them, than Hepzibah presented on that first afternoon.
How patiently did she endeavor to wrap Clifford up in her great, warm
love, and make it all the world to him, so that he should retain no
torturing sense of the coldness and dreariness without! Her little
efforts to amuse him! How pitiful, yet magnanimous, they were!
Remembering his early love of poetry and fiction, she unlocked a
bookcase, and took down several books that had been excellent reading
in their day. There was a volume of Pope, with the Rape of the Lock in
it, and another of the Tatler, and an odd one of Dryden’s Miscellanies,
all with tarnished gilding on their covers, and thoughts of tarnished
brilliancy inside. They had no success with Clifford. These, and all
such writers of society, whose new works glow like the rich texture of
a just-woven carpet, must be content to relinquish their charm, for
every reader, after an age or two, and could hardly be supposed to
retain any portion of it for a mind that had utterly lost its estimate
of modes and manners. Hepzibah then took up Rasselas, and began to read
of the Happy Valley, with a vague idea that some secret of a contented
life had there been elaborated, which might at least serve Clifford and
herself for this one day. But the Happy Valley had a cloud over it.
Hepzibah troubled her auditor, moreover, by innumerable sins of
emphasis, which he seemed to detect, without any reference to the
meaning; nor, in fact, did he appear to take much note of the sense of
what she read, but evidently felt the tedium of the lecture, without
harvesting its profit. His sister’s voice, too, naturally harsh, had,
in the course of her sorrowful lifetime, contracted a kind of croak,
which, when it once gets into the human throat, is as ineradicable as
sin. In both sexes, occasionally, this lifelong croak, accompanying
each word of joy or sorrow, is one of the symptoms of a settled
melancholy; and wherever it occurs, the whole history of misfortune is
conveyed in its slightest accent. The effect is as if the voice had
been dyed black; or,—if we must use a more moderate simile,—this
miserable croak, running through all the variations of the voice, is
like a black silken thread, on which the crystal beads of speech are
strung, and whence they take their hue. Such voices have put on
mourning for dead hopes; and they ought to die and be buried along with
them!
Discerning that Clifford was not gladdened by her efforts, Hepzibah
searched about the house for the means of more exhilarating pastime. At
one time, her eyes chanced to rest on Alice Pyncheon’s harpsichord. It
was a moment of great peril; for,—despite the traditionary awe that had
gathered over this instrument of music, and the dirges which spiritual
fingers were said to play on it,—the devoted sister had solemn thoughts
of thrumming on its chords for Clifford’s benefit, and accompanying the
performance with her voice. Poor Clifford! Poor Hepzibah! Poor
harpsichord! All three would have been miserable together. By some good
agency,—possibly, by the unrecognized interposition of the long-buried
Alice herself,—the threatening calamity was averted.
But the worst of all—the hardest stroke of fate for Hepzibah to endure,
and perhaps for Clifford, too was his invincible distaste for her
appearance. Her features, never the most agreeable, and now harsh with
age and grief, and resentment against the world for his sake; her
dress, and especially her turban; the queer and quaint manners, which
had unconsciously grown upon her in solitude,—such being the poor
gentlewoman’s outward characteristics, it is no great marvel, although
the mournfullest of pities, that the instinctive lover of the Beautiful
was fain to turn away his eyes. There was no help for it. It would be
the latest impulse to die within him. In his last extremity, the
expiring breath stealing faintly through Clifford’s lips, he would
doubtless press Hepzibah’s hand, in fervent recognition of all her
lavished love, and close his eyes,—but not so much to die, as to be
constrained to look no longer on her face! Poor Hepzibah! She took
counsel with herself what might be done, and thought of putting ribbons
on her turban; but, by the instant rush of several guardian angels, was
withheld from an experiment that could hardly have proved less than
fatal to the beloved object of her anxiety.
To be brief, besides Hepzibah’s disadvantages of person, there was an
uncouthness pervading all her deeds; a clumsy something, that could but
ill adapt itself for use, and not at all for ornament. She was a grief
to Clifford, and she knew it. In this extremity, the antiquated virgin
turned to Phœbe. No grovelling jealousy was in her heart. Had it
pleased Heaven to crown the heroic fidelity of her life by making her
personally the medium of Clifford’s happiness, it would have rewarded
her for all the past, by a joy with no bright tints, indeed, but deep
and true, and worth a thousand gayer ecstasies. This could not be. She
therefore turned to Phœbe, and resigned the task into the young girl’s
hands. The latter took it up cheerfully, as she did everything, but
with no sense of a mission to perform, and succeeding all the better
for that same simplicity.
By the involuntary effect of a genial temperament, Phœbe soon grew to
be absolutely essential to the daily comfort, if not the daily life, of
her two forlorn companions. The grime and sordidness of the House of
the Seven Gables seemed to have vanished since her appearance there;
the gnawing tooth of the dry-rot was stayed among the old timbers of
its skeleton frame; the dust had ceased to settle down so densely, from
the antique ceilings, upon the floors and furniture of the rooms
below,—or, at any rate, there was a little housewife, as light-footed
as the breeze that sweeps a garden walk, gliding hither and thither to
brush it all away. The shadows of gloomy events that haunted the else
lonely and desolate apartments; the heavy, breathless scent which death
had left in more than one of the bedchambers, ever since his visits of
long ago,—these were less powerful than the purifying influence
scattered throughout the atmosphere of the household by the presence of
one youthful, fresh, and thoroughly wholesome heart. There was no
morbidness in Phœbe; if there had been, the old Pyncheon House was the
very locality to ripen it into incurable disease. But now her spirit
resembled, in its potency, a minute quantity of ottar of rose in one of
Hepzibah’s huge, iron-bound trunks, diffusing its fragrance through the
various articles of linen and wrought-lace, kerchiefs, caps, stockings,
folded dresses, gloves, and whatever else was treasured there. As every
article in the great trunk was the sweeter for the rose-scent, so did
all the thoughts and emotions of Hepzibah and Clifford, sombre as they
might seem, acquire a subtle attribute of happiness from Phœbe’s
intermixture with them. Her activity of body, intellect, and heart
impelled her continually to perform the ordinary little toils that
offered themselves around her, and to think the thought proper for the
moment, and to sympathize,—now with the twittering gayety of the robins
in the pear-tree, and now to such a depth as she could with Hepzibah’s
dark anxiety, or the vague moan of her brother. This facile adaptation
was at once the symptom of perfect health and its best preservative.
A nature like Phœbe’s has invariably its due influence, but is seldom
regarded with due honor. Its spiritual force, however, may be partially
estimated by the fact of her having found a place for herself, amid
circumstances so stern as those which surrounded the mistress of the
house; and also by the effect which she produced on a character of so
much more mass than her own. For the gaunt, bony frame and limbs of
Hepzibah, as compared with the tiny lightsomeness of Phœbe’s figure,
were perhaps in some fit proportion with the moral weight and
substance, respectively, of the woman and the girl.
To the guest,—to Hepzibah’s brother,—or Cousin Clifford, as Phœbe now
began to call him,—she was especially necessary. Not that he could ever
be said to converse with her, or often manifest, in any other very
definite mode, his sense of a charm in her society. But if she were a
long while absent he became pettish and nervously restless, pacing the
room to and fro with the uncertainty that characterized all his
movements; or else would sit broodingly in his great chair, resting his
head on his hands, and evincing life only by an electric sparkle of
ill-humor, whenever Hepzibah endeavored to arouse him. Phœbe’s
presence, and the contiguity of her fresh life to his blighted one, was
usually all that he required. Indeed, such was the native gush and play
of her spirit, that she was seldom perfectly quiet and undemonstrative,
any more than a fountain ever ceases to dimple and warble with its
flow. She possessed the gift of song, and that, too, so naturally, that
you would as little think of inquiring whence she had caught it, or
what master had taught her, as of asking the same questions about a
bird, in whose small strain of music we recognize the voice of the
Creator as distinctly as in the loudest accents of his thunder. So long
as Phœbe sang, she might stray at her own will about the house.
Clifford was content, whether the sweet, airy homeliness of her tones
came down from the upper chambers, or along the passageway from the
shop, or was sprinkled through the foliage of the pear-tree, inward
from the garden, with the twinkling sunbeams. He would sit quietly,
with a gentle pleasure gleaming over his face, brighter now, and now a
little dimmer, as the song happened to float near him, or was more
remotely heard. It pleased him best, however, when she sat on a low
footstool at his knee.
It is perhaps remarkable, considering her temperament, that Phœbe
oftener chose a strain of pathos than of gayety. But the young and
happy are not ill pleased to temper their life with a transparent
shadow. The deepest pathos of Phœbe’s voice and song, moreover, came
sifted through the golden texture of a cheery spirit, and was somehow
so interfused with the quality thence acquired, that one’s heart felt
all the lighter for having wept at it. Broad mirth, in the sacred
presence of dark misfortune, would have jarred harshly and irreverently
with the solemn symphony that rolled its undertone through Hepzibah’s
and her brother’s life. Therefore, it was well that Phœbe so often
chose sad themes, and not amiss that they ceased to be so sad while she
was singing them.
Becoming habituated to her companionship, Clifford readily showed how
capable of imbibing pleasant tints and gleams of cheerful light from
all quarters his nature must originally have been. He grew youthful
while she sat by him. A beauty,—not precisely real, even in its utmost
manifestation, and which a painter would have watched long to seize and
fix upon his canvas, and, after all, in vain,—beauty, nevertheless,
that was not a mere dream, would sometimes play upon and illuminate his
face. It did more than to illuminate; it transfigured him with an
expression that could only be interpreted as the glow of an exquisite
and happy spirit. That gray hair, and those furrows,—with their record
of infinite sorrow so deeply written across his brow, and so
compressed, as with a futile effort to crowd in all the tale, that the
whole inscription was made illegible,—these, for the moment, vanished.
An eye at once tender and acute might have beheld in the man some
shadow of what he was meant to be. Anon, as age came stealing, like a
sad twilight, back over his figure, you would have felt tempted to hold
an argument with Destiny, and affirm, that either this being should not
have been made mortal, or mortal existence should have been tempered to
his qualities. There seemed no necessity for his having drawn breath at
all; the world never wanted him; but, as he had breathed, it ought
always to have been the balmiest of summer air. The same perplexity
will invariably haunt us with regard to natures that tend to feed
exclusively upon the Beautiful, let their earthly fate be as lenient as
it may.
Phœbe, it is probable, had but a very imperfect comprehension of the
character over which she had thrown so beneficent a spell. Nor was it
necessary. The fire upon the hearth can gladden a whole semicircle of
faces round about it, but need not know the individuality of one among
them all. Indeed, there was something too fine and delicate in
Clifford’s traits to be perfectly appreciated by one whose sphere lay
so much in the Actual as Phœbe’s did. For Clifford, however, the
reality, and simplicity, and thorough homeliness of the girl’s nature
were as powerful a charm as any that she possessed. Beauty, it is true,
and beauty almost perfect in its own style, was indispensable. Had
Phœbe been coarse in feature, shaped clumsily, of a harsh voice, and
uncouthly mannered, she might have been rich with all good gifts,
beneath this unfortunate exterior, and still, so long as she wore the
guise of woman, she would have shocked Clifford, and depressed him by
her lack of beauty. But nothing more beautiful—nothing prettier, at
least—was ever made than Phœbe. And, therefore, to this man,—whose
whole poor and impalpable enjoyment of existence heretofore, and until
both his heart and fancy died within him, had been a dream,—whose
images of women had more and more lost their warmth and substance, and
been frozen, like the pictures of secluded artists, into the chillest
ideality,—to him, this little figure of the cheeriest household life
was just what he required to bring him back into the breathing world.
Persons who have wandered, or been expelled, out of the common track of
things, even were it for a better system, desire nothing so much as to
be led back. They shiver in their loneliness, be it on a mountain-top
or in a dungeon. Now, Phœbe’s presence made a home about her,—that very
sphere which the outcast, the prisoner, the potentate,—the wretch
beneath mankind, the wretch aside from it, or the wretch above
it,—instinctively pines after,—a home! She was real! Holding her hand,
you felt something; a tender something; a substance, and a warm one:
and so long as you should feel its grasp, soft as it was, you might be
certain that your place was good in the whole sympathetic chain of
human nature. The world was no longer a delusion.
By looking a little further in this direction, we might suggest an
explanation of an often-suggested mystery. Why are poets so apt to
choose their mates, not for any similarity of poetic endowment, but for
qualities which might make the happiness of the rudest handicraftsman
as well as that of the ideal craftsman of the spirit? Because,
probably, at his highest elevation, the poet needs no human
intercourse; but he finds it dreary to descend, and be a stranger.
There was something very beautiful in the relation that grew up between
this pair, so closely and constantly linked together, yet with such a
waste of gloomy and mysterious years from his birthday to hers. On
Clifford’s part it was the feeling of a man naturally endowed with the
liveliest sensibility to feminine influence, but who had never quaffed
the cup of passionate love, and knew that it was now too late. He knew
it, with the instinctive delicacy that had survived his intellectual
decay. Thus, his sentiment for Phœbe, without being paternal, was not
less chaste than if she had been his daughter. He was a man, it is
true, and recognized her as a woman. She was his only representative of
womankind. He took unfailing note of every charm that appertained to
her sex, and saw the ripeness of her lips, and the virginal development
of her bosom. All her little womanly ways, budding out of her like
blossoms on a young fruit-tree, had their effect on him, and sometimes
caused his very heart to tingle with the keenest thrills of pleasure.
At such moments,—for the effect was seldom more than momentary,—the
half-torpid man would be full of harmonious life, just as a long-silent
harp is full of sound, when the musician’s fingers sweep across it.
But, after all, it seemed rather a perception, or a sympathy, than a
sentiment belonging to himself as an individual. He read Phœbe as he
would a sweet and simple story; he listened to her as if she were a
verse of household poetry, which God, in requital of his bleak and
dismal lot, had permitted some angel, that most pitied him, to warble
through the house. She was not an actual fact for him, but the
interpretation of all that he lacked on earth brought warmly home to
his conception; so that this mere symbol, or life-like picture, had
almost the comfort of reality.
But we strive in vain to put the idea into words. No adequate
expression of the beauty and profound pathos with which it impresses us
is attainable. This being, made only for happiness, and heretofore so
miserably failing to be happy,—his tendencies so hideously thwarted,
that, some unknown time ago, the delicate springs of his character,
never morally or intellectually strong, had given way, and he was now
imbecile,—this poor, forlorn voyager from the Islands of the Blest, in
a frail bark, on a tempestuous sea, had been flung, by the last
mountain-wave of his shipwreck, into a quiet harbor. There, as he lay
more than half lifeless on the strand, the fragrance of an earthly
rose-bud had come to his nostrils, and, as odors will, had summoned up
reminiscences or visions of all the living and breathing beauty amid
which he should have had his home. With his native susceptibility of
happy influences, he inhales the slight, ethereal rapture into his
soul, and expires!
And how did Phœbe regard Clifford? The girl’s was not one of those
natures which are most attracted by what is strange and exceptional in
human character. The path which would best have suited her was the
well-worn track of ordinary life; the companions in whom she would most
have delighted were such as one encounters at every turn. The mystery
which enveloped Clifford, so far as it affected her at all, was an
annoyance, rather than the piquant charm which many women might have
found in it. Still, her native kindliness was brought strongly into
play, not by what was darkly picturesque in his situation, nor so much,
even, by the finer graces of his character, as by the simple appeal of
a heart so forlorn as his to one so full of genuine sympathy as hers.
She gave him an affectionate regard, because he needed so much love,
and seemed to have received so little. With a ready tact, the result of
ever-active and wholesome sensibility, she discerned what was good for
him, and did it. Whatever was morbid in his mind and experience she
ignored; and thereby kept their intercourse healthy, by the incautious,
but, as it were, heaven-directed freedom of her whole conduct. The sick
in mind, and, perhaps, in body, are rendered more darkly and hopelessly
so by the manifold reflection of their disease, mirrored back from all
quarters in the deportment of those about them; they are compelled to
inhale the poison of their own breath, in infinite repetition. But
Phœbe afforded her poor patient a supply of purer air. She impregnated
it, too, not with a wild-flower scent,—for wildness was no trait of
hers,—but with the perfume of garden-roses, pinks, and other blossoms
of much sweetness, which nature and man have consented together in
making grow from summer to summer, and from century to century. Such a
flower was Phœbe in her relation with Clifford, and such the delight
that he inhaled from her.
Yet, it must be said, her petals sometimes drooped a little, in
consequence of the heavy atmosphere about her. She grew more thoughtful
than heretofore. Looking aside at Clifford’s face, and seeing the dim,
unsatisfactory elegance and the intellect almost quenched, she would
try to inquire what had been his life. Was he always thus? Had this
veil been over him from his birth?—this veil, under which far more of
his spirit was hidden than revealed, and through which he so
imperfectly discerned the actual world,—or was its gray texture woven
of some dark calamity? Phœbe loved no riddles, and would have been glad
to escape the perplexity of this one. Nevertheless, there was so far a
good result of her meditations on Clifford’s character, that, when her
involuntary conjectures, together with the tendency of every strange
circumstance to tell its own story, had gradually taught her the fact,
it had no terrible effect upon her. Let the world have done him what
vast wrong it might, she knew Cousin Clifford too well—or fancied
so—ever to shudder at the touch of his thin, delicate fingers.
Within a few days after the appearance of this remarkable inmate, the
routine of life had established itself with a good deal of uniformity
in the old house of our narrative. In the morning, very shortly after
breakfast, it was Clifford’s custom to fall asleep in his chair; nor,
unless accidentally disturbed, would he emerge from a dense cloud of
slumber or the thinner mists that flitted to and fro, until well
towards noonday. These hours of drowsihead were the season of the old
gentlewoman’s attendance on her brother, while Phœbe took charge of the
shop; an arrangement which the public speedily understood, and evinced
their decided preference of the younger shopwoman by the multiplicity
of their calls during her administration of affairs. Dinner over,
Hepzibah took her knitting-work,—a long stocking of gray yarn, for her
brother’s winter wear,—and with a sigh, and a scowl of affectionate
farewell to Clifford, and a gesture enjoining watchfulness on Phœbe,
went to take her seat behind the counter. It was now the young girl’s
turn to be the nurse,—the guardian, the playmate,—or whatever is the
fitter phrase,—of the gray-haired man.
Nathaniel Hawthorne — text from Project Gutenberg (eBook #77)
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