Chapter 43
IV
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IV
Little more than a year later the transformation which the old Valmêt
place had undergone was the talk and wonder of Côte Joyeuse. One would
have looked in vain for the ruin; it was no longer there; neither was
the log cabin. But out in the open, where the sun shone upon it, and
the breezes blew about it, was a shapely structure fashioned from woods
that the forests of the State had furnished. It rested upon a solid
foundation of brick.
Upon a corner of the pleasant gallery sat Léandre smoking his afternoon
cigar, and chatting with neighbors who had called. This was to be his
_pied à terre_ now; the home where his sisters and his daughter dwelt.
The laughter of young people was heard out under the trees, and within
the house where La Petite was playing upon the piano. With the
enthusiasm of a young artist she drew from the keys strains that seemed
marvelously beautiful to Mam’selle Pauline, who stood enraptured near
her. Mam’selle Pauline had been touched by the re-creation of Valmêt.
Her cheek was as full and almost as flushed as La Petite’s. The years
were falling away from her.
Ma’ame Pélagie had been conversing with her brother and his friends.
Then she turned and walked away; stopping to listen awhile to the music
which La Petite was making. But it was only for a moment. She went on
around the curve of the veranda, where she found herself alone. She
stayed there, erect, holding to the banister rail and looking out
calmly in the distance across the fields.
She was dressed in black, with the white kerchief she always wore
folded across her bosom. Her thick, glossy hair rose like a silver
diadem from her brow. In her deep, dark eyes smouldered the light of
fires that would never flame. She had grown very old. Years instead of
months seemed to have passed over her since the night she bade farewell
to her visions.
Poor Ma’ame Pélagie! How could it be different! While the outward
pressure of a young and joyous existence had forced her footsteps into
the light, her soul had stayed in the shadow of the ruin.
DÉSIRÉE’S BABY
As the day was pleasant, Madame Valmondé drove over to L’Abri to see
Désirée and the baby.
It made her laugh to think of Désirée with a baby. Why, it seemed but
yesterday that Désirée was little more than a baby herself; when
Monsieur in riding through the gateway of Valmondé had found her lying
asleep in the shadow of the big stone pillar.
The little one awoke in his arms and began to cry for “Dada.” That was
as much as she could do or say. Some people thought she might have
strayed there of her own accord, for she was of the toddling age. The
prevailing belief was that she had been purposely left by a party of
Texans, whose canvas-covered wagon, late in the day, had crossed the
ferry that Coton Maïs kept, just below the plantation. In time Madame
Valmondé abandoned every speculation but the one that Désirée had been
sent to her by a beneficent Providence to be the child of her
affection, seeing that she was without child of the flesh. For the girl
grew to be beautiful and gentle, affectionate and sincere,—the idol of
Valmondé.
It was no wonder, when she stood one day against the stone pillar in
whose shadow she had lain asleep, eighteen years before, that Armand
Aubigny riding by and seeing her there, had fallen in love with her.
That was the way all the Aubignys fell in love, as if struck by a
pistol shot. The wonder was that he had not loved her before; for he
had known her since his father brought him home from Paris, a boy of
eight, after his mother died there. The passion that awoke in him that
day, when he saw her at the gate, swept along like an avalanche, or
like a prairie fire, or like anything that drives headlong over all
obstacles.
Monsieur Valmondé grew practical and wanted things well considered:
that is, the girl’s obscure origin. Armand looked into her eyes and did
not care. He was reminded that she was nameless. What did it matter
about a name when he could give her one of the oldest and proudest in
Louisiana? He ordered the _corbeille_ from Paris, and contained himself
with what patience he could until it arrived; then they were married.
Madame Valmondé had not seen Désirée and the baby for four weeks. When
she reached L’Abri she shuddered at the first sight of it, as she
always did. It was a sad looking place, which for many years had not
known the gentle presence of a mistress, old Monsieur Aubigny having
married and buried his wife in France, and she having loved her own
land too well ever to leave it. The roof came down steep and black like
a cowl, reaching out beyond the wide galleries that encircled the
yellow stuccoed house. Big, solemn oaks grew close to it, and their
thick-leaved, far-reaching branches shadowed it like a pall. Young
Aubigny’s rule was a strict one, too, and under it his negroes had
forgotten how to be gay, as they had been during the old master’s
easy-going and indulgent lifetime.
The young mother was recovering slowly, and lay full length, in her
soft white muslins and laces, upon a couch. The baby was beside her,
upon her arm, where he had fallen asleep, at her breast. The yellow
nurse woman sat beside a window fanning herself.
Madame Valmondé bent her portly figure over Désirée and kissed her,
holding her an instant tenderly in her arms. Then she turned to the
child.
“This is not the baby!” she exclaimed, in startled tones. French was
the language spoken at Valmondé in those days.
“I knew you would be astonished,” laughed Désirée, “at the way he has
grown. The little _cochon de lait!_ Look at his legs, mamma, and his
hands and finger-nails,—real finger-nails. Zandrine had to cut them
this morning. Isn’t it true, Zandrine?”
The woman bowed her turbaned head majestically, “Mais si, Madame.”
“And the way he cries,” went on Désirée, “is deafening. Armand heard
him the other day as far away as La Blanche’s cabin.”
Madame Valmondé had never removed her eyes from the child. She lifted
it and walked with it over to the window that was lightest. She scanned
the baby narrowly, then looked as searchingly at Zandrine, whose face
was turned to gaze across the fields.
“Yes, the child has grown, has changed,” said Madame Valmondé, slowly,
as she replaced it beside its mother. “What does Armand say?”
Désirée’s face became suffused with a glow that was happiness itself.
“Oh, Armand is the proudest father in the parish, I believe, chiefly
because it is a boy, to bear his name; though he says not,—that he
would have loved a girl as well. But I know it isn’t true. I know he
says that to please me. And mamma,” she added, drawing Madame
Valmondé’s head down to her, and speaking in a whisper, “he hasn’t
punished one of them—not one of them—since baby is born. Even
Négrillon, who pretended to have burnt his leg that he might rest from
work—he only laughed, and said Négrillon was a great scamp. Oh, mamma,
I’m so happy; it frightens me.”
What Désirée said was true. Marriage, and later the birth of his son
had softened Armand Aubigny’s imperious and exacting nature greatly.
This was what made the gentle Désirée so happy, for she loved him
desperately. When he frowned she trembled, but loved him. When he
smiled, she asked no greater blessing of God. But Armand’s dark,
handsome face had not often been disfigured by frowns since the day he
fell in love with her.
When the baby was about three months old, Désirée awoke one day to the
conviction that there was something in the air menacing her peace. It
was at first too subtle to grasp. It had only been a disquieting
suggestion; an air of mystery among the blacks; unexpected visits from
far-off neighbors who could hardly account for their coming. Then a
strange, an awful change in her husband’s manner, which she dared not
ask him to explain. When he spoke to her, it was with averted eyes,
from which the old love-light seemed to have gone out. He absented
himself from home; and when there, avoided her presence and that of her
child, without excuse. And the very spirit of Satan seemed suddenly to
take hold of him in his dealings with the slaves. Désirée was miserable
enough to die.
She sat in her room, one hot afternoon, in her _peignoir_, listlessly
drawing through her fingers the strands of her long, silky brown hair
that hung about her shoulders. The baby, half naked, lay asleep upon
her own great mahogany bed, that was like a sumptuous throne, with its
satin-lined half-canopy. One of La Blanche’s little quadroon boys—half
naked too—stood fanning the child slowly with a fan of peacock
feathers. Désirée’s eyes had been fixed absently and sadly upon the
baby, while she was striving to penetrate the threatening mist that she
felt closing about her. She looked from her child to the boy who stood
beside him, and back again; over and over. “Ah!” It was a cry that she
could not help; which she was not conscious of having uttered. The
blood turned like ice in her veins, and a clammy moisture gathered upon
her face.
She tried to speak to the little quadroon boy; but no sound would come,
at first. When he heard his name uttered, he looked up, and his
mistress was pointing to the door. He laid aside the great, soft fan,
and obediently stole away, over the polished floor, on his bare
tiptoes.
She stayed motionless, with gaze riveted upon her child, and her face
the picture of fright.
Presently her husband entered the room, and without noticing her, went
to a table and began to search among some papers which covered it.
“Armand,” she called to him, in a voice which must have stabbed him, if
he was human. But he did not notice. “Armand,” she said again. Then she
rose and tottered towards him. “Armand,” she panted once more,
clutching his arm, “look at our child. What does it mean? tell me.”
He coldly but gently loosened her fingers from about his arm and thrust
the hand away from him. “Tell me what it means!” she cried
despairingly.
“It means,” he answered lightly, “that the child is not white; it means
that you are not white.”
A quick conception of all that this accusation meant for her nerved her
with unwonted courage to deny it. “It is a lie; it is not true, I am
white! Look at my hair, it is brown; and my eyes are gray, Armand, you
know they are gray. And my skin is fair,” seizing his wrist. “Look at
my hand; whiter than yours, Armand,” she laughed hysterically.
“As white as La Blanche’s,” he returned cruelly; and went away leaving
her alone with their child.
When she could hold a pen in her hand, she sent a despairing letter to
Madame Valmondé.
“My mother, they tell me I am not white. Armand has told me I am not
white. For God’s sake tell them it is not true. You must know it is not
true. I shall die. I must die. I cannot be so unhappy, and live.”
The answer that came was brief:
“My own Désirée: Come home to Valmondé; back to your mother who loves
you. Come with your child.”
When the letter reached Désirée she went with it to her husband’s
study, and laid it open upon the desk before which he sat. She was like
a stone image: silent, white, motionless after she placed it there.
In silence he ran his cold eyes over the written words.
He said nothing. “Shall I go, Armand?” she asked in tones sharp with
agonized suspense.
“Yes, go.”
“Do you want me to go?”
“Yes, I want you to go.”
He thought Almighty God had dealt cruelly and unjustly with him; and
felt, somehow, that he was paying Him back in kind when he stabbed thus
into his wife’s soul. Moreover he no longer loved her, because of the
unconscious injury she had brought upon his home and his name.
She turned away like one stunned by a blow, and walked slowly towards
the door, hoping he would call her back.
“Good-by, Armand,” she moaned.
He did not answer her. That was his last blow at fate.
Désirée went in search of her child. Zandrine was pacing the sombre
gallery with it. She took the little one from the nurse’s arms with no
word of explanation, and descending the steps, walked away, under the
live-oak branches.
It was an October afternoon; the sun was just sinking. Out in the still
fields the negroes were picking cotton.
Désirée had not changed the thin white garment nor the slippers which
she wore. Her hair was uncovered and the sun’s rays brought a golden
gleam from its brown meshes. She did not take the broad, beaten road
which led to the far-off plantation of Valmondé. She walked across a
deserted field, where the stubble bruised her tender feet, so
delicately shod, and tore her thin gown to shreds.
She disappeared among the reeds and willows that grew thick along the
banks of the deep, sluggish bayou; and she did not come back again.
Some weeks later there was a curious scene enacted at L’Abri. In the
centre of the smoothly swept back yard was a great bonfire. Armand
Aubigny sat in the wide hallway that commanded a view of the spectacle;
and it was he who dealt out to a half dozen negroes the material which
kept this fire ablaze.
A graceful cradle of willow, with all its dainty furbishings, was laid
upon the pyre, which had already been fed with the richness of a
priceless _layette_. Then there were silk gowns, and velvet and satin
ones added to these; laces, too, and embroideries; bonnets and gloves;
for the _corbeille_ had been of rare quality.
The last thing to go was a tiny bundle of letters; innocent little
scribblings that Désirée had sent to him during the days of their
espousal. There was the remnant of one back in the drawer from which he
took them. But it was not Désirée’s; it was part of an old letter from
his mother to his father. He read it. She was thanking God for the
blessing of her husband’s love:—
“But above all,” she wrote, “night and day, I thank the good God for
having so arranged our lives that our dear Armand will never know that
his mother, who adores him, belongs to the race that is cursed with the
brand of slavery.”
A RESPECTABLE WOMAN
Mrs. Baroda was a little provoked to learn that her husband expected
his friend, Gouvernail, up to spend a week or two on the plantation.
They had entertained a good deal during the winter; much of the time
had also been passed in New Orleans in various forms of mild
dissipation. She was looking forward to a period of unbroken rest, now,
and undisturbed tête-à-tête with her husband, when he informed her that
Gouvernail was coming up to stay a week or two.
This was a man she had heard much of but never seen. He had been her
husband’s college friend; was now a journalist, and in no sense a
society man or “a man about town,” which were, perhaps, some of the
reasons she had never met him. But she had unconsciously formed an
image of him in her mind. She pictured him tall, slim, cynical; with
eye-glasses, and his hands in his pockets; and she did not like him.
Gouvernail was slim enough, but he wasn’t very tall nor very cynical;
neither did he wear eyeglasses nor carry his hands in his pockets. And
she rather liked him when he first presented himself.
But why she liked him she could not explain satisfactorily to herself
when she partly attempted to do so. She could discover in him none of
those brilliant and promising traits which Gaston, her husband, had
often assured her that he possessed. On the contrary, he sat rather
mute and receptive before her chatty eagerness to make him feel at home
and in face of Gaston’s frank and wordy hospitality. His manner was as
courteous toward her as the most exacting woman could require; but he
made no direct appeal to her approval or even esteem.
Once settled at the plantation he seemed to like to sit upon the wide
portico in the shade of one of the big Corinthian pillars, smoking his
cigar lazily and listening attentively to Gaston’s experience as a
sugar planter.
“This is what I call living,” he would utter with deep satisfaction, as
the air that swept across the sugar field caressed him with its warm
and scented velvety touch. It pleased him also to get on familiar terms
with the big dogs that came about him, rubbing themselves sociably
against his legs. He did not care to fish, and displayed no eagerness
to go out and kill grosbecs when Gaston proposed doing so.
Gouvernail’s personality puzzled Mrs. Baroda, but she liked him.
Indeed, he was a lovable, inoffensive fellow. After a few days, when
she could understand him no better than at first, she gave over being
puzzled and remained piqued. In this mood she left her husband and her
guest, for the most part, alone together. Then finding that Gouvernail
took no manner of exception to her action, she imposed her society upon
him, accompanying him in his idle strolls to the mill and walks along
the batture. She persistently sought to penetrate the reserve in which
he had unconsciously enveloped himself.
“When is he going—your friend?” she one day asked her husband. “For my
part, he tires me frightfully.”
“Not for a week yet, dear. I can’t understand; he gives you no
trouble.”
“No. I should like him better if he did; if he were more like others,
and I had to plan somewhat for his comfort and enjoyment.”
Gaston took his wife’s pretty face between his hands and looked
tenderly and laughingly into her troubled eyes.
They were making a bit of toilet sociably together in Mrs. Baroda’s
dressing-room.
“You are full of surprises, ma belle,” he said to her. “Even I can
never count upon how you are going to act under given conditions.” He
kissed her and turned to fasten his cravat before the mirror.
“Here you are,” he went on, “taking poor Gouvernail seriously and
making a commotion over him, the last thing he would desire or expect.”
“Commotion!” she hotly resented. “Nonsense! How can you say such a
thing? Commotion, indeed! But, you know, you said he was clever.”
“So he is. But the poor fellow is run down by overwork now. That’s why
I asked him here to take a rest.”
“You used to say he was a man of ideas,” she retorted, unconciliated.
“I expected him to be interesting, at least. I’m going to the city in
the morning to have my spring gowns fitted. Let me know when Mr.
Gouvernail is gone; I shall be at my Aunt Octavie’s.”
That night she went and sat alone upon a bench that stood beneath a
live oak tree at the edge of the gravel walk.
She had never known her thoughts or her intentions to be so confused.
She could gather nothing from them but the feeling of a distinct
necessity to quit her home in the morning.
Mrs. Baroda heard footsteps crunching the gravel; but could discern in
the darkness only the approaching red point of a lighted cigar. She
knew it was Gouvernail, for her husband did not smoke. She hoped to
remain unnoticed, but her white gown revealed her to him. He threw away
his cigar and seated himself upon the bench beside her; without a
suspicion that she might object to his presence.
“Your husband told me to bring this to you, Mrs. Baroda,” he said,
handing her a filmy, white scarf with which she sometimes enveloped her
head and shoulders. She accepted the scarf from him with a murmur of
thanks, and let it lie in her lap.
He made some commonplace observation upon the baneful effect of the
night air at the season. Then as his gaze reached out into the
darkness, he murmured, half to himself:
“‘Night of south winds—night of the large few stars!
Still nodding night—’”
She made no reply to this apostrophe to the night, which, indeed, was
not addressed to her.
Gouvernail was in no sense a diffident man, for he was not a
self-conscious one. His periods of reserve were not constitutional, but
the result of moods. Sitting there beside Mrs. Baroda, his silence
melted for the time.
He talked freely and intimately in a low, hesitating drawl that was not
unpleasant to hear. He talked of the old college days when he and
Gaston had been a good deal to each other; of the days of keen and
blind ambitions and large intentions. Now there was left with him, at
least, a philosophic acquiescence to the existing order—only a desire
to be permitted to exist, with now and then a little whiff of genuine
life, such as he was breathing now.
Her mind only vaguely grasped what he was saying. Her physical being
was for the moment predominant. She was not thinking of his words, only
drinking in the tones of his voice. She wanted to reach out her hand in
the darkness and touch him with the sensitive tips of her fingers upon
the face or the lips. She wanted to draw close to him and whisper
against his cheek—she did not care what—as she might have done if she
had not been a respectable woman.
The stronger the impulse grew to bring herself near him, the further,
in fact, did she draw away from him. As soon as she could do so without
an appearance of too great rudeness, she rose and left him there alone.
Before she reached the house, Gouvernail had lighted a fresh cigar and
ended his apostrophe to the night.
Mrs. Baroda was greatly tempted that night to tell her husband—who was
also her friend—of this folly that had seized her. But she did not
yield to the temptation. Beside being a respectable woman she was a
very sensible one; and she knew there are some battles in life which a
human being must fight alone.
When Gaston arose in the morning, his wife had already departed. She
had taken an early morning train to the city. She did not return till
Gouvernail was gone from under her roof.
There was some talk of having him back during the summer that followed.
That is, Gaston greatly desired it; but this desire yielded to his
wife’s strenuous opposition.
However, before the year ended, she proposed, wholly from herself, to
have Gouvernail visit them again. Her husband was surprised and
delighted with the suggestion coming from her.
“I am glad, chère amie, to know that you have finally overcome your
dislike for him; truly he did not deserve it.”
“Oh,” she told him, laughingly, after pressing a long, tender kiss upon
his lips, “I have overcome everything! you will see. This time I shall
be very nice to him.”
THE KISS
It was still quite light out of doors, but inside with the curtains
drawn and the smouldering fire sending out a dim, uncertain glow, the
room was full of deep shadows.
Brantain sat in one of these shadows; it had overtaken him and he did
not mind. The obscurity lent him courage to keep his eyes fastened as
ardently as he liked upon the girl who sat in the firelight.
She was very handsome, with a certain fine, rich coloring that belongs
to the healthy brune type. She was quite composed, as she idly stroked
the satiny coat of the cat that lay curled in her lap, and she
occasionally sent a slow glance into the shadow where her companion
sat. They were talking low, of indifferent things which plainly were
not the things that occupied their thoughts. She knew that he loved
her—a frank, blustering fellow without guile enough to conceal his
feelings, and no desire to do so. For two weeks past he had sought her
society eagerly and persistently. She was confidently waiting for him
to declare himself and she meant to accept him. The rather
insignificant and unattractive Brantain was enormously rich; and she
liked and required the entourage which wealth could give her.
During one of the pauses between their talk of the last tea and the
next reception the door opened and a young man entered whom Brantain
knew quite well. The girl turned her face toward him. A stride or two
brought him to her side, and bending over her chair—before she could
suspect his intention, for she did not realize that he had not seen her
visitor—he pressed an ardent, lingering kiss upon her lips.
Brantain slowly arose; so did the girl arise, but quickly, and the
newcomer stood between them, a little amusement and some defiance
struggling with the confusion in his face.
“I believe,” stammered Brantain, “I see that I have stayed too long.
I—I had no idea—that is, I must wish you good-by.” He was clutching his
hat with both hands, and probably did not perceive that she was
extending her hand to him, her presence of mind had not completely
deserted her; but she could not have trusted herself to speak.
“Hang me if I saw him sitting there, Nattie! I know it’s deuced awkward
for you. But I hope you’ll forgive me this once—this very first break.
Why, what’s the matter?”
“Don’t touch me; don’t come near me,” she returned angrily. “What do
you mean by entering the house without ringing?”
“I came in with your brother, as I often do,” he answered coldly, in
self-justification. “We came in the side way. He went upstairs and I
came in here hoping to find you. The explanation is simple enough and
ought to satisfy you that the misadventure was unavoidable. But do say
that you forgive me, Nathalie,” he entreated, softening.
“Forgive you! You don’t know what you are talking about. Let me pass.
It depends upon—a good deal whether I ever forgive you.”
At that next reception which she and Brantain had been talking about
she approached the young man with a delicious frankness of manner when
she saw him there.
“Will you let me speak to you a moment or two, Mr. Brantain?” she asked
with an engaging but perturbed smile. He seemed extremely unhappy; but
when she took his arm and walked away with him, seeking a retired
corner, a ray of hope mingled with the almost comical misery of his
expression. She was apparently very outspoken.
“Perhaps I should not have sought this interview, Mr. Brantain;
but—but, oh, I have been very uncomfortable, almost miserable since
that little encounter the other afternoon. When I thought how you might
have misinterpreted it, and believed things”—hope was plainly gaining
the ascendancy over misery in Brantain’s round, guileless face—“Of
course, I know it is nothing to you, but for my own sake I do want you
to understand that Mr. Harvy is an intimate friend of long standing.
Why, we have always been like cousins—like brother and sister, I may
say. He is my brother’s most intimate associate and often fancies that
he is entitled to the same privileges as the family. Oh, I know it is
absurd, uncalled for, to tell you this; undignified even,” she was
almost weeping, “but it makes so much difference to me what you think
of—of me.” Her voice had grown very low and agitated. The misery had
all disappeared from Brantain’s face.
“Then you do really care what I think, Miss Nathalie? May I call you
Miss Nathalie?” They turned into a long, dim corridor that was lined on
either side with tall, graceful plants. They walked slowly to the very
end of it. When they turned to retrace their steps Brantain’s face was
radiant and hers was triumphant.
Harvy was among the guests at the wedding; and he sought her out in a
rare moment when she stood alone.
“Your husband,” he said, smiling, “has sent me over to kiss you.”
A quick blush suffused her face and round polished throat. “I suppose
it’s natural for a man to feel and act generously on an occasion of
this kind. He tells me he doesn’t want his marriage to interrupt wholly
that pleasant intimacy which has existed between you and me. I don’t
know what you’ve been telling him,” with an insolent smile, “but he has
sent me here to kiss you.”
She felt like a chess player who, by the clever handling of his pieces,
sees the game taking the course intended. Her eyes were bright and
tender with a smile as they glanced up into his; and her lips looked
hungry for the kiss which they invited.
“But, you know,” he went on quietly, “I didn’t tell him so, it would
have seemed ungrateful, but I can tell you. I’ve stopped kissing women;
it’s dangerous.”
Well, she had Brantain and his million left. A person can’t have
everything in this world; and it was a little unreasonable of her to
expect it.
A PAIR OF SILK STOCKINGS
Little Mrs. Sommers one day found herself the unexpected possessor of
fifteen dollars. It seemed to her a very large amount of money, and the
way in which it stuffed and bulged her worn old _porte-monnaie_ gave
her a feeling of importance such as she had not enjoyed for years.
The question of investment was one that occupied her greatly. For a day
or two she walked about apparently in a dreamy state, but really
absorbed in speculation and calculation. She did not wish to act
hastily, to do anything she might afterward regret. But it was during
the still hours of the night when she lay awake revolving plans in her
mind that she seemed to see her way clearly toward a proper and
judicious use of the money.
A dollar or two should be added to the price usually paid for Janie’s
shoes, which would insure their lasting an appreciable time longer than
they usually did. She would buy so and so many yards of percale for new
shirt waists for the boys and Janie and Mag. She had intended to make
the old ones do by skilful patching. Mag should have another gown. She
had seen some beautiful patterns, veritable bargains in the shop
windows. And still there would be left enough for new stockings—two
pairs apiece—and what darning that would save for a while! She would
get caps for the boys and sailor-hats for the girls. The vision of her
little brood looking fresh and dainty and new for once in their lives
excited her and made her restless and wakeful with anticipation.
The neighbors sometimes talked of certain “better days” that little
Mrs. Sommers had known before she had ever thought of being Mrs.
Sommers. She herself indulged in no such morbid retrospection. She had
no time—no second of time to devote to the past. The needs of the
present absorbed her every faculty. A vision of the future like some
dim, gaunt monster sometimes appalled her, but luckily to-morrow never
comes.
Mrs. Sommers was one who knew the value of bargains; who could stand
for hours making her way inch by inch toward the desired object that
was selling below cost. She could elbow her way if need be; she had
learned to clutch a piece of goods and hold it and stick to it with
persistence and determination till her turn came to be served, no
matter when it came.
But that day she was a little faint and tired. She had swallowed a
light luncheon—no! when she came to think of it, between getting the
children fed and the place righted, and preparing herself for the
shopping bout, she had actually forgotten to eat any luncheon at all!
She sat herself upon a revolving stool before a counter that was
comparatively deserted, trying to gather strength and courage to charge
through an eager multitude that was besieging breastworks of shirting
and figured lawn. An all-gone limp feeling had come over her and she
rested her hand aimlessly upon the counter. She wore no gloves. By
degrees she grew aware that her hand had encountered something very
soothing, very pleasant to touch. She looked down to see that her hand
lay upon a pile of silk stockings. A placard near by announced that
they had been reduced in price from two dollars and fifty cents to one
dollar and ninety-eight cents; and a young girl who stood behind the
counter asked her if she wished to examine their line of silk hosiery.
She smiled, just as if she had been asked to inspect a tiara of
diamonds with the ultimate view of purchasing it. But she went on
feeling the soft, sheeny luxurious things—with both hands now, holding
them up to see them glisten, and to feel them glide serpent-like
through her fingers.
Two hectic blotches came suddenly into her pale cheeks. She looked up
at the girl.
“Do you think there are any eights-and-a-half among these?”
There were any number of eights-and-a-half. In fact, there were more of
that size than any other. Here was a light-blue pair; there were some
lavender, some all black and various shades of tan and gray. Mrs.
Sommers selected a black pair and looked at them very long and closely.
She pretended to be examining their texture, which the clerk assured
her was excellent.
“A dollar and ninety-eight cents,” she mused aloud. “Well, I’ll take
this pair.” She handed the girl a five-dollar bill and waited for her
change and for her parcel. What a very small parcel it was! It seemed
lost in the depths of her shabby old shopping-bag.
Mrs. Sommers after that did not move in the direction of the bargain
counter. She took the elevator, which carried her to an upper floor
into the region of the ladies’ waiting-rooms. Here, in a retired
corner, she exchanged her cotton stockings for the new silk ones which
she had just bought. She was not going through any acute mental process
or reasoning with herself, nor was she striving to explain to her
satisfaction the motive of her action. She was not thinking at all. She
seemed for the time to be taking a rest from that laborious and
fatiguing function and to have abandoned herself to some mechanical
impulse that directed her actions and freed her of responsibility.
How good was the touch of the raw silk to her flesh! She felt like
lying back in the cushioned chair and reveling for a while in the
luxury of it. She did for a little while. Then she replaced her shoes,
rolled the cotton stockings together and thrust them into her bag.
After doing this she crossed straight over to the shoe department and
took her seat to be fitted.
She was fastidious. The clerk could not make her out; he could not
reconcile her shoes with her stockings, and she was not too easily
pleased. She held back her skirts and turned her feet one way and her
head another way as she glanced down at the polished, pointed-tipped
boots. Her foot and ankle looked very pretty. She could not realize
that they belonged to her and were a part of herself. She wanted an
excellent and stylish fit, she told the young fellow who served her,
and she did not mind the difference of a dollar or two more in the
price so long as she got what she desired.
It was a long time since Mrs. Sommers had been fitted with gloves. On
rare occasions when she had bought a pair they were always “bargains,”
so cheap that it would have been preposterous and unreasonable to have
expected them to be fitted to the hand.
Now she rested her elbow on the cushion of the glove counter, and a
pretty, pleasant young creature, delicate and deft of touch, drew a
long-wristed “kid” over Mrs. Sommers’s hand. She smoothed it down over
the wrist and buttoned it neatly, and both lost themselves for a second
or two in admiring contemplation of the little symmetrical gloved hand.
But there were other places where money might be spent.
There were books and magazines piled up in the window of a stall a few
paces down the street. Mrs. Sommers bought two high-priced magazines
such as she had been accustomed to read in the days when she had been
accustomed to other pleasant things. She carried them without wrapping.
As well as she could she lifted her skirts at the crossings. Her
stockings and boots and well fitting gloves had worked marvels in her
bearing—had given her a feeling of assurance, a sense of belonging to
the well-dressed multitude.
She was very hungry. Another time she would have stilled the cravings
for food until reaching her own home, where she would have brewed
herself a cup of tea and taken a snack of anything that was available.
But the impulse that was guiding her would not suffer her to entertain
any such thought.
There was a restaurant at the corner. She had never entered its doors;
from the outside she had sometimes caught glimpses of spotless damask
and shining crystal, and soft-stepping waiters serving people of
fashion.
When she entered her appearance created no surprise, no consternation,
as she had half feared it might. She seated herself at a small table
alone, and an attentive waiter at once approached to take her order.
She did not want a profusion; she craved a nice and tasty bite—a half
dozen blue-points, a plump chop with cress, a something sweet—a
crème-frappée, for instance; a glass of Rhine wine, and after all a
small cup of black coffee.
While waiting to be served she removed her gloves very leisurely and
laid them beside her. Then she picked up a magazine and glanced through
it, cutting the pages with a blunt edge of her knife. It was all very
agreeable. The damask was even more spotless than it had seemed through
the window, and the crystal more sparkling. There were quiet ladies and
gentlemen, who did not notice her, lunching at the small tables like
her own. A soft, pleasing strain of music could be heard, and a gentle
breeze was blowing through the window. She tasted a bite, and she read
a word or two, and she sipped the amber wine and wiggled her toes in
the silk stockings. The price of it made no difference. She counted the
money out to the waiter and left an extra coin on his tray, whereupon
he bowed before her as before a princess of royal blood.
There was still money in her purse, and her next temptation presented
itself in the shape of a matinee poster.
It was a little later when she entered the theatre, the play had begun
and the house seemed to her to be packed. But there were vacant seats
here and there, and into one of them she was ushered, between
brilliantly dressed women who had gone there to kill time and eat candy
and display their gaudy attire. There were many others who were there
solely for the play and acting. It is safe to say there was no one
present who bore quite the attitude which Mrs. Sommers did to her
surroundings. She gathered in the whole—stage and players and people in
one wide impression, and absorbed it and enjoyed it. She laughed at the
comedy and wept—she and the gaudy woman next to her wept over the
tragedy. And they talked a little together over it. And the gaudy woman
wiped her eyes and sniffled on a tiny square of filmy, perfumed lace
and passed little Mrs. Sommers her box of candy.
The play was over, the music ceased, the crowd filed out. It was like a
dream ended. People scattered in all directions. Mrs. Sommers went to
the corner and waited for the cable car.
A man with keen eyes, who sat opposite to her, seemed to like the study
of her small, pale face. It puzzled him to decipher what he saw there.
In truth, he saw nothing—unless he were wizard enough to detect a
poignant wish, a powerful longing that the cable car would never stop
anywhere, but go on and on with her forever.
THE LOCKET
Kate Chopin — text from Project Gutenberg (eBook #160)
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